Here are my notes take from a chatting session online with my microphone, speakers and HP web-cam:
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[7:22:24 PM] *** Call from [username of first cousin here] ***
[7:24:34 PM] FLYNN B.: She said that [name of first cousin here] hit on head…
[7:24:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Oh, boy!
[7:24:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Remember she is disabled!
[7:24:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Where is your understanding?
[7:25:02 PM] FLYNN B.: It’s okay.
[7:25:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Can you please stop [upsetting] each other>?
[7:25:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Wow!
[7:25:21 PM] FLYNN B.: OMG!
[7:25:45 PM] FLYNN B.: Okay, Mom just got her rotor cuff surgery on right shoulder.
[7:25:57 PM] FLYNN B.: So it’s hard work to take care of recovery here.
[7:26:11 PM] FLYNN B.: Are the three gowns fit here?
[7:26:25 PM] FLYNN B.: *her? Those three gowns belong to [name of first cousin here].. the ones without the arms.
[7:26:34 PM] FLYNN B.: There are three big ones for [name of first cousin here].
[7:26:35 PM] [username of first cousin here]: how can i hit her?
[7:26:40 PM] [username of first cousin here]: [she's] telling a lie
[7:26:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Did you get the clothes?
[7:26:52 PM] [username of first cousin here]: im the only one taking care of her omggg
[7:27:04 PM] FLYNN B.:
My best Tagalog interpretation sounded like you HIT your mom over the head.
[7:27:12 PM] FLYNN B.: She cannot wear the tight gown.
[7:27:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Does [name of first cousin here] know how to sew to fix her gowns?
[7:27:22 PM] [username of first cousin here]: i gave her the 3 clothes [that's] intended for me coz she said all in the package is for her
[7:27:29 PM] FLYNN B.: I’m interpreting here.
[7:27:38 PM] FLYNN B.: The wallet/purse is for her around the neck.
[7:28:01 PM] FLYNN B.: So give wallet to her apo is good. anak si pee-wee or rico apo
[7:28:17 PM] FLYNN B.: did you receive small box?
[7:28:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom:smaller box supplement bigger box.
[7:29:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: now talking about soup, milk — she is using for drinking? okay. chocolate sent, too.
[7:29:17 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: no, it’s for [name of first cousin here].
[7:29:25 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: okay lang give her.
[7:29:35 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: i made for you so [name of first cousin here] won’t spend.
[7:30:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: don’t eat too much. [ramen] top good with veggies. if salty don’t use too much, save for gulay next time, and templa flavor.
[7:30:16 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: did you receive rice? we were going to give more but didn’t fit in box,.
[7:30:34 PM] [username of first cousin here]: yes rice 2 packs
[7:30:47 PM] [username of first cousin here]: ya rice is very yummy compare to our rice lol
[7:30:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: it’s important to eat rice, no panahon lakad, no simbang for two week, balikat hindi mga taas.
[7:30:57 PM] [username of first cousin here]: look my mother got weight hahahaha
[7:30:59 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: Tell [name of first cousin here] don’t hit you…
[7:31:16 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: It’s bad. It’s not good. It’s suppose to be respect of elder.
[7:31:26 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Of course, i’m nice. I learned [patience].
[7:31:27 PM] [username of first cousin here]: i said im not hitting her
[7:31:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry for you.
[7:31:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: [name of first cousin here]. You’re violent.
[7:31:58 PM] [username of first cousin here]: [she's] telling [lie]
[7:32:06 PM] FLYNN B.: I could see your gesture is frustration.
[7:32:07 PM] [username of first cousin here]: tell ya mom im the only one suffering for her
[7:32:14 PM] [username of first cousin here]: but she has no utang na loob to me
[7:32:18 PM] [username of first cousin here]: im very sad for her
[7:32:23 PM] [username of first cousin here]: acting to me
[7:32:24 PM] FLYNN B.: It’s hypertension, high blood pressure and high [triglyceride] high cholesterol.
[7:32:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: Don’t raise your voice at [name of first cousin here].
[7:32:49 PM] [username of first cousin here]: ur mom is blaming me
[7:32:53 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: who will take care of you? kids will more likely hit parents.
[7:33:01 PM] [username of first cousin here]: because ur auntie aida is not telling the truth
[7:33:02 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: I know. I’ve heard story.
[7:33:15 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s your test. Your strength.
[7:33:23 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: Maybe it’s because your mouth is too much for [name of first cousin here].
[7:33:37 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: Please pray for your strength or at least let the god take you.
[7:33:46 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s our test for faith.
[7:34:14 PM] [username of first cousin here]: every morning i got headache 
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[7:34:26 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: I can’t do what you did… Really jerking motion. But not like that [name of first cousin here]. Remember the frustration of lifestyle. I understand> It’s difficult.
[7:34:45 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: Telling her sister about strength. and worrying.
[7:34:47 PM] [username of first cousin here]: but no one will give breakfast for my mother so even [it's] so painful i have to serve her a brekkie\
[7:35:17 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s okay. Your losing it. Okay. Okay.
[7:35:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s okay. You need help/assistant living.
[7:35:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Everyone has problems. You must have the karma — everyone has karma to pay.
[7:36:13 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: You have the strength. The headache may be symptom.
[7:36:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: We kids are really too much. Trust me. I can get mean, too. Batangas blood.
[7:36:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s between you and your mom.
[7:37:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s okay. It’s between you and your mom. Sorry. It’s up to you.
[7:37:28 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Not the head thing.
[7:37:35 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: But your gesture.
[7:37:42 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: You have to be more gentle.
[7:37:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: You really loud. It’s our clogged arteries.
[7:38:06 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Trust me. I don’t like hearing the victim stories.
[7:38:24 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Remember EMO. Try to hear the words and remove the EMO emotional portion.
[7:39:02 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Stress, hormones… I was snappy from drinking coffee and I reacted severely…
[7:39:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: It’s difficult to repeat everything. Trust me.
[7:39:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: High blood pressure, might be symptom, hopefully not the stroke. Be careful…
[7:39:58 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: We have inherited here. All my paternal relatives clogged arteries.
[7:40:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: I had to pay cash to see primary care doctor and found out my blood has too much protein… so I have to cut out butter and meat…
[7:41:04 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Remember she is disabled. Try to laugh it off… I could feel head pressure… That’s from the thick blood, high protein content…
[7:41:10 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Frustration… really.
[7:41:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Grave before, Grave during, Grave after… oh well…
[7:41:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: You might pop.
[7:42:17 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Yeah, if she can do to public/neighbors, don’t take too hard personally. not fair to you…
[7:42:27 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: caretakers can abuse elderly…
[7:42:36 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: everywhere… it’s frustrating…
[7:43:24 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oh well… yeah, i farted and dad is behind me…
[7:43:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: okay, go for it, lord! Take everyone away… Weeee!
[7:44:08 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: get a ting-ting…
[7:44:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: right now my parents are able-bodied and still capacitated… but it’s still a lot of work…
[7:44:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: OMG! You two are so cute!
[7:45:03 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: we are all living on this hellish planet…
[7:45:22 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s hard… don’t go nutter…
[7:45:55 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oh boy… EMO…
[7:46:29 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yup, we sierra’s keep giving… to go broke…
[7:46:47 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you have to learn to do the bait and [switch]
[7:46:57 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oh look, here is yours! there you go…
[7:47:34 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oh well… hide and seek… weee!
[7:48:10 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: if everyone is starving, so be it… but don’t give too much…
[7:48:37 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you’re only hurting yourself… if you are close to all of them and the treat you nice and remember you, fine. but that’s too much…
[7:49:13 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: knock you head in and you though shalt be given unto Rico, your brother
[7:49:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: okay nice story… thank you [name of first cousin here].
[7:50:00 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you need the strength of guys and cooperation of people. it’s hard…
[7:50:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: just say OKAY…
[7:50:35 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: just say little…
[7:50:47 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: just SMILE… and survive…
[7:51:07 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… she won’t stop gesturing behind you…
[7:51:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… goodbye auntie aida… nice knowing you…
[7:51:44 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… the damage from stroke made her old frustration even worse…
[7:52:09 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… we cannot hear but mom can see the facial expression and non-stop MOUTHING… via the web-cam…
[7:52:38 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: [name of first cousin here]… hello!
[7:53:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oops… try new strategy…
[7:53:38 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… she’s disabled…
[7:53:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… your test is to “play along”…
[7:54:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… don’t let the “demons” within wear down your soul and pray for everyone… Ate…
[7:55:00 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… try not to fight back with a lost soul/mind… it’s too late… sorry cousin…
[7:55:34 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: don’t look for credit/acknowledgement/recognition from a crazy woman… sorry cousin…
[7:55:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the town’s folks know stories upon stories… the truth is always out there…
[7:56:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the frame of mind/experience cannot “level” with your hard work/responsibility, etc,,,
[7:57:09 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… it’s okay… usually happy faces reflect upon other happy faces…
[7:57:31 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: maybe she just misses the connection with her sister and other “familiar” faces…
[7:57:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yeah ungrateful brothers… i know the feeling (you know what I mean)!
[7:58:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yup we have experiences here with relatives/siblings… but it comes from understanding each other… no hurt feelings… all this existence … all for nothing …
[7:58:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you are fighting with a frustrated, old, disabled woman and ungrateful brothers…
[7:59:08 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: they are making you sick.
[7:59:25 PM] [username of first cousin here]: hahahha u farted u made me laughed dad will smell it
[7:59:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: lactose intolerant. sorry tatay!
[7:59:56 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: drinking milk makes me go poop easier. thought you should know.
[8:00:16 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you, your “boyfriend/s”, your grand/children…
[8:00:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: thank you, dad for helping us.
[8:00:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oops
[8:01:06 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: angry old woman… hiss (snake sound)…
[8:01:37 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yeah auntie was fighting with other workers on the “blue house” in kalayaan.
[8:01:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: and mom was barely in her underwear and had to scold her sister…
[8:02:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… oje vey!
[8:02:58 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: sounds like me (oops)…
[8:03:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: sierra blood… of giving without thinking… it’s sad, truly…
[8:03:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: live for the “here and now” attitude… hmmm. interesting…
[8:04:07 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yeah, i feel it… the feeling sorry for everyone… only to be fooled…
[8:04:19 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: No!!!
[8:06:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: she’s gone! i’m sorry, Ate…
[8:09:11 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… that is a struggle… just trying to take care of my mom who cannot use her right/surgery arm… i see/understand now… the frustration
[8:09:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s all hers! hehehe!
[8:09:55 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you can always “borrow” when she is not looking…
[8:10:46 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you got all the food?
[8:10:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: what? now what? huh?
[8:10:59 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: stop moorah [name of first cousin here]!
[8:11:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… oh well… but you stop morrah… had to find pera… mahal to rent… where is three lalaki? [mostly] spending [name of first cousin here]. not right what you did.
[8:11:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: your [name of first cousin here] spending
[8:12:05 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: [name of first cousin here] renting… paying phone, water… why are [giving] anak hard time
[8:12:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: if you give her hard time, where will you live in manila because of mahal rent.
[8:12:36 PM] FLYNN B.: *Mom: if water is expensive too
[8:12:58 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: whaloo limbooo is too much i won’t give you that much!
[8:13:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: stop fighting with a crazy woman…
[8:13:44 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: you are wrong aida! what are you talking about?
[8:14:04 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yeah yeah. but it is what she has been doing all her life … giving without thinking…
[8:14:27 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s none of our business… it’s purely entertainment from our end…
[8:15:08 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… it’s something i’d do out of frustration … gesturing and making faces… must be inherited. hehehe!
[8:16:03 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… there she goes again… gesturing
[8:16:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: soy sauce and rice and coffee is all we need… yum.
[8:16:45 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: picky eater! my god!
[8:17:44 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yup… the town folks know about auntie aida’s, umm, behavior… long ago…
[8:18:01 PM] [username of first cousin here]: [she's] doing it to me
[8:18:15 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: so a lot of things can be said and done after all these years… it’s reality over there, i guess…
[8:18:34 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: spoiled brat even in her old age…
[8:19:00 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you are already programmed/triggered by your mother’s bad behavior…
[8:19:23 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yup… get over it… everyone/dog for him/her/itself…
[8:20:06 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i think mothers love the boys better, just like Chinese families/traditions
[8:20:38 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i feel it here… not jealousy… but something familiar for all cultures… sons preferred over daughters…
[8:21:15 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yeah, rotation for all your money given to your brothers via your own mother… wow…
[8:21:53 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it could be parasites/fungus in brain/neurological system via cats/ticks/dogs…
[8:23:34 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you are fighting with a disabled woman…
[8:23:56 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: for example, just play along, say: oh, really. oh, okay.
[8:24:11 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i keep farting. it’s smells!
[8:24:12 PM] [username of first cousin here]: omgg its so hard
[8:24:18 PM] [username of first cousin here]: [she's] possessed
[8:24:37 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: trying smudging with herbs or even black candles from what i read… holy water… whatever…
[8:25:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: late uncle Florene wanted to petition auntie aida but her attitude was too much to deal with…
[8:25:42 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: mom got spanked for your mother’s bad behavior during childhood…
[8:27:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: we don’t talk with them, just as they don’t talk with us.
[8:27:33 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the nieces/nephews on both sides don’t come here/talk with us…
[8:28:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i don’t know…
[8:31:17 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Visayans are beautiful people but such fighters, really. we have a Visayans living next door to us… she’s a divorced nutter… fights a lot…
[8:31:46 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you set the rules… can’t be nice. you have to be the “matron” of your own house/home/pad…
[8:33:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Rico is like late Florene and our junior… boys are really too much in love/blind to see the error of their ways…
[8:34:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: keep the faith… you have the strength… just leave the past behind… good luck, honey!
[8:34:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s like a circus!
[8:34:50 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: of course, siblings have different lifestyles/attitudes…
[8:35:29 PM] [username of first cousin here]: yes cuz one day ill look for my own life
[8:35:42 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Man! I can’t keep up with this/these conversation/talks. I’m spacing out.
[8:35:57 PM] [username of first cousin here]: its tiring but shes my mother and ill take care of her
[8:39:50 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i just put a wooden table for my printer to hold up the web cam…
[8:41:19 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: arthroscopic surgery… four holes into right shoulder. Feb 2, 2012 and ten days of recovery… staying up late until 3:00am for one week because dad sleeps [downstairs]… six weeks for recovery…
[8:42:12 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: good practice for caretaking the elderly… now i go to sleep at two o’clock… will have to reset my sleeping pattern…
[8:42:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: nice shiny!
[8:42:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: use oil, soap or get a tool to cut it off…
[8:43:06 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: your mom has yawned. my mind has yawned.
[8:44:11 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the purpose is so you don’t have to buy, of course.
[8:44:31 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: some creamers taste good. some don’t.
[8:45:07 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: mixing drinks…
[8:45:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: C&H, pure cane sugar. from Hawaii ([commercial] jingle)
[8:46:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: use dried blocks of [ramen]. use one salt pack. use extra salt pack for your veggie soup later on…
[8:47:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: *two blocks, one salt
[8:47:42 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… you eat it… or don’t eat at all… like tipping. you tip or don’t tip at all!
[8:48:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: just explain… one sentence… mom tends to [elaborate] too. dad and me prefer summary and it’s understood.
[8:48:29 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: *elaborate
[8:48:59 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: oh well… it’s hard to say “nope” and to get used to it…
[8:49:25 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: if they are starving, oh well… that’s not your problem. but it’s hard.
[8:49:57 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the age spread between mom and late Florene is almost twenty years? that’s long. they don’t really know/knew each other…
[8:50:25 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yup… used to be comradery… now everyone for her/herself…
[8:50:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: not financially here… ever…
[8:51:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: back in the early 1980′s
[8:51:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: of course they had to live with the in-law (my dad) and the kids (jr. and me).
[8:52:00 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: if you owe them, then fine. but if you owe them something, oops.
[8:52:44 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: never mind. but we will all get old and no one will remember the “recognition” during the old/dying days…
[8:53:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: having fun is temporary. but everything else is hard work.
[8:53:53 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: once again, it’s creepy to show off with poorer bayans… really.
[8:54:05 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: hole in the heart.
[8:54:27 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: over 90 is not good.
[8:55:05 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: high cholesterol/high triglycerides coincide with high blood pressure reading…
[8:55:28 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: because of clog arteries…
[8:55:34 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Mom is spacing out.. hello!
[8:56:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: so it’s all in genes and not eating saturated fat (butter, oily chips) and red meat (pork, beef). I was told.
[8:56:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: danger, meaning head aches symptoms… and short fuse/easily angered…
[8:57:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: we eat the “other” white meat – chicken, turkey
[8:58:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Chinese egg noodles deep-fried, avoid the lard/[Crisco]…
[8:58:37 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Mama Sita’s brand called Sinigang soup base mix… blend in cold water and introduce to your soup…
[8:59:10 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: one week of staying up late to take care of mom upstairs… she can’t lie “flat”
[8:59:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: so she sat up in chair for one week while waiting…
[8:59:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: no operation for dad. just high cholesterol.
[9:00:12 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: mom was the nurse, always on feet at work and now at home cannot “shift” downward to rest, always busy
[9:00:28 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: dad and i are “tasters”. Mom is the primary “cook”.
[9:01:02 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: one time dad and i tried to buy ingredients for her cooking but we always get the wrong one and have to return it! top ramen is easier to cook/eat.
[9:02:09 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: liver spread… for your white/wheat sandwich…
[9:02:25 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: sardines… salty!
[9:02:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: but good to eat!
[9:03:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: that’s good. no meat. be a vegan (vegetarian).
[9:04:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: economize food intake, just like how you budget your HARD work.
[9:05:29 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: lots of horror stories from Filipinos who live here in America via our local church/parish…
[9:06:01 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the Filipinos here got tired of getting phone calls from the Philippines and even changed their phone numbers to avoid the “begging/complaining” from their bayans/relatives…
[9:06:36 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: all for love and the love of the children…
[9:07:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you kept reporting to me that your wallet is “missing”. hmmm.
[9:10:46 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you have to play like America’s TSA here… pat them down and run them through the x-ray scanners…
[9:12:27 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: huh?
[9:13:45 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: America
[9:14:13 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: *Americans tend to kick out their kids after they reach 18 years of legal age here.,,
[9:15:04 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… very slow movement… hobbling… at least she can walk!
[9:15:22 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: leans to the left… I could see her spine [curvature] going to the left…
[9:16:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: One tube of Ben-Gay is USD15.00.
[9:17:04 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: or 635.87848 PHP
[9:18:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: or 1.00 USD to 42.39190 PHP (+/- 0% Interbank Rate) per Oanda.com…
[9:19:41 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: the sweating/poop/urine will ba-hoo the foam without plastic covering/protection… egg foam acts like sponge… stinky!
[9:21:33 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Valieriano and Sanrod nearby?
[9:27:05 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yup… life goes on with the living…
[9:27:15 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: excuses, excuses!
[9:28:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: why is it always the bad stuff is remembered/gossip more often than good stuff?
[9:29:25 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: usually the children, i hate to say it, “absorb” some, if not all, karma from naughty parents…
[9:30:50 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: she is testing her blood glucose level with a testing tape, lancet needle and the blood glucose meter…
[9:31:19 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: then I look at the “grid” from the doctor and administer the insulin injection(s)…
[9:31:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: 243 mg/dl… we had [pineapple] cake from Duncan Hines (Moist),,,
[9:32:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i’ll be back to draw the insulin… she had diabetes for over ten years…
[9:32:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: mom and dad do NOT use foul words/false accusations… it’s calm here, really…
[9:35:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: two insulins — Humulog (for fast-acting) and Levemir (for slow-acting)…
[9:36:24 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: yeah, liability here… I was “trained” by mom where to inject and how to inject and how to dispose of the needles properly three times a day…
[9:36:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: so that’s why there is professional/hired help…
[9:38:23 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: welcome back. so we are ready to sign off… we are getting tired and got our “routines” to do for the evening…
[9:38:56 PM] [username of first cousin here]: u are a good daughter
[9:39:16 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: excitement for Mom tends to raise blood pressure thusly the blood sugar level also goes up… so mom’s condition takes lots of care…
[9:40:11 PM] FLYNN B.: i am a good girl but imperfections of a temper once in a while during frustrations… and the use american slang words…
[9:40:56 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: chicken soup/broth in a can for flavor…
[9:45:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: expect a perfect daughter with lots of money to spend on her mother and everyone else, including friends…
[9:46:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: so the late uncle Florene didn’t bother contacting his OLD family… what a shame… i guess he was ashamed of his POOR family and prefer the good times with his Navy friends…
[9:47:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i know the feeling of envy/jealously… it’s very strong… but i have to stop… look away…
[9:47:36 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: now i excepted my fate… really simple, boring… but peaceful…
[9:48:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Lola Salina helped late Lola Valing to hide money from your mother long ago…
[9:48:50 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: many old stories we don’t know about…
[9:49:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you’re just lucky she doesn’t freak out that she doesn’t know where she is or who she is or who you are…
[9:49:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: they can get violent…
[9:50:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: wow… i’m learning this for the first time… it’s all medical…
[9:50:44 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: gently, please… it’s VERY short-term the actions, the thoughts…
[9:51:07 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: just pet her like a nice lamb…
[9:51:14 PM] [username of first cousin here]: i think ill gonna die first before my mother
[9:51:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s not faking but it’s the best course of action… something about philosophy of being flexible like a marsh reed…
[9:52:03 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: a HARD/resistant stick will break/snap, of course…
[9:53:03 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s bad. i’m stuck. everyone is stuck. but we try to deal with it/rationalize this reality set/dimension…
[9:54:04 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: everyone will become feeble-minded… there are lots of guys are NOT stupid, they like food and sex…
[9:54:33 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: companionship means supporting each other
[9:54:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: if he wants a housewife, that’s a trade-off for his financial support…
[9:55:37 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: actually, he seems nice.
[9:55:54 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: guys with tats are calm…
[9:56:14 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: some guys like big women…
[9:56:24 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s okay… again older people different…
[9:57:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: technicalities, huh.
[9:57:59 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: local laws different… he should set you free!
[9:58:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: 150,000 PHP = 3,519.78003 per Oanda.com. That’s one month’s mortgage payment for my brother here in America.
[9:59:36 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: that’s it. live and die. it’s 09:59PM here in California…
[10:00:19 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: she needs the head phone…
[10:00:43 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: bye bye. behave auntie. take care cousin. love you all!
[10:00:59 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: don’t give [name of first cousin here] a hard time… god will get mad!
[10:01:28 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: no work, no money. hard work to find living. earning every month.
[10:01:41 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: i should have died but thank god.
[10:02:07 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: it’s hard for my life here. but i don’t use my mouth like you. we are calm here. we don’t say bad words to my family and children. i just cry.
[10:02:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: When I cry, i don’t ask for help. I don’t scream at Roger.
[10:02:32 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: our home is calm.
[10:02:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: you keep motioning at [name of first cousin here] and do that to the daughter. what kind of mother are you?
[10:03:05 PM] FLYNN B.: Dad: how can you do that do your daughter?
[10:03:25 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: give your sons money. your daughter sacrificed and you let it come out that she’s bad!
[10:03:44 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: i know that. i’m like that. you’re luck you can complain. but i cannot complain.
[10:03:59 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: i’m telling you this is how people end up.
[10:04:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: we are waiting for your kids to help us. if they can’t all we can do is cry and not make a big deal.
[10:04:28 PM] [username of first cousin here]: i think u understand Tagalog as u can [transferred] what ya moms saying its just that u cant talk
[10:04:36 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: i can see you getting mad at [name of first cousin here] and making gestures/faces.
[10:04:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: I already scolded [name of first cousin here]. I told her everything.
[10:04:51 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: i know.
[10:04:58 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: you ti-is.
[10:05:12 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: here in America if you are stubborn, you get beaten up.
[10:05:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: who?
[10:05:31 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: whatever. she is not making sense [name of first cousin here]
[10:05:39 PM] [username of first cousin here]: ur auntie aida is getting crazy again
[10:05:45 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: it’s not good.
[10:05:48 PM] [username of first cousin here]: [she']s saying someone here wanna marry u
[10:05:56 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: did zinnia sierra visit you?
[10:05:57 PM] [username of first cousin here]: [that's] old story
[10:06:12 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: everyday?
[10:06:15 PM] [username of first cousin here]: no i [haven't] see zinnia
[10:06:21 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: okay.
[10:06:24 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: how many times?
[10:06:40 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: who is serving you? the boys or the daughter?
[10:06:57 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: you need to give recognition to your daughter.
[10:07:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: she can’t because she is working. where is she going to get money?
[10:07:31 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: we are solo. the children cannot be at our side all the time.
[10:07:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: my water and cracker is by my bedside,.
[10:07:47 PM] [username of first cousin here]: actually im pissed off with ya auntie but [can't] help [she's] my mother [i'll] take care of her even she [don't] recognized me
[10:07:58 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: see i cannot use my arm. you keep giving [name of first cousin here] a hard time. and give others who don’t serve you!
[10:08:11 PM] FLYNN B.: Mom: lord might be mad at you that’s why you can’t die.
[10:08:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: scratches and blood letting are signs of “demonic activities” manifestations…
[10:09:20 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: attachment could go to you too; so it goes both ways…
[10:10:05 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: ADT is a common household security systems — cameras, motion sensors, 24/7 calling police — my brother uses it in his home…
[10:10:49 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Wrong deeds must be paid, usually mentally/emotionally and can affect others…
[10:12:16 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: sometimes have to order bad stuff to leave the body/human form…
[10:12:55 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: just lots of old energy from old places in Philippines where lots of old spirits dwell, of course…
[10:13:19 PM] [username of first cousin here]: i will shower her holy water
[10:14:04 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: bad energy will work themselves out eventually… presently just avoid as much as possible…
[10:14:39 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: maybe take anti-parasite, herbal remedy from Amway, if any…
[10:17:56 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: Out of seriousness, her condition is medical and can be treated with medication.
[10:18:30 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i hear you.
[10:19:15 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: you may need REAL medication…
[10:20:16 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: clogged arteries in hearts, head, neck, legs, etc… angiogram is done here in America.
[10:20:56 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: gas/atmospheric pressure might pop clogged arteries…
[10:21:57 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: I’m close to 90 and that’s not good.
[10:22:18 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: prayers inspire. but “common sense” is better.
[10:23:06 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: try lemon and lime for taste instead of soy sauce/fish sauce. at least she will die happy knowing she ate good tasting food…
[10:26:26 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: i can feel head/ear pressure, a symptom of my condition of which i plan to visit my primary care physician in three months (April) to get “statin” drugs for my high levels in cholestrol and triglycerides.
[10:26:52 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: time to sign off and move on with things. god bless you all. take care.
[10:28:00 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it’s the socio-economic condition of the P.I. so that’s understood. yup.
[10:29:48 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: it is still cold in the evening but getting warmer in the days.
[10:30:03 PM] [username of first cousin here]: goodnight cuz thanks for everything
[10:30:10 PM] [username of first cousin here]: im very thankful
[10:30:15 PM] [username of first cousin here]: i love you all
[10:30:42 PM] FLYNN B.: Me: thanks for your conversations. be strong, my dear. i’ll be “sending” prayers long distance, if it is god’s will, the energy will calm down…
[10:31:14 PM] FLYNN B.: byr
[10:31:16 PM] FLYNN B.: e
[10:31:34 PM] FLYNN B.: you can always email me.
[10:32:04 PM] FLYNN B.: love you. be well. simple PERSONAL prayers for strength as NEEDED of course.
[10:32:20 PM] FLYNN B.: prayer too long… i got my own way of praying…
[10:32:52 PM] FLYNN B.: imagine shield around your aura/surroundings/protection…
[10:33:15 PM] FLYNN B.: it’s blurry
[10:33:24 PM] FLYNN B.: can’t quite make out condition
[10:33:36 PM] FLYNN B.: extra skin, need plastic surgery to make tighter and prettier!
[10:33:51 PM] FLYNN B.: 10:33pm already. good night. leave now!
